HAPPY EASTER!!!!

Today is Easter, the day in which we celebrate the resurrection of Christ. It is such a joyous day, where we can say Hallelujah. This is one of my favorite day's in the Christian calendar, because it is truly a celebration. I love being able to rejoice in knowing that Jesus was resurrected after atoning for our sins on the cross. I feel like I can be at peace, knowing that I can be an imperfect person and still have God's unconditional love, because of Jesus dying on the cross. I love what John 11:25 says, "Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die..." This is such a wonderful scripture verse, and to me sums up the reason Jesus died on the cross. I hope that this Easter day, we can all remember that it is not about dyed eggs, and bunny's (though they are fun), but celebrating the resurrection of our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. I hope you enjoy this joyous and blessed occasion with family and/or friends.


Joyful Love
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Blessings In The Lord
Alexandra K. Acosta

Palm Sunday

Today is Palm Sunday, and this week is Holy Week. As we prepare remembering Jesus's crucifiction and celebration of his resurrection, I am reminded of an old saying that I recently read that says, "I had a debt I could not pay; He paid a debt He did not owe." This saying really resonates with me, on how Jesus paid for my sins at Calvary. As I listened to today's sermon, I am reminded of the pain and suffering that Jesus went through for me, so that my sins could be paid for. He died for me, and that makes me really feel how much He loves me. I am always reminded of God's love this time of year. As I think about the pain and suffering that I am going through right now with my illness, I think about all that Jesus went through. I love what John 3:16 says, "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." Throughout the week, and on Easter Sunday, I will have this verse close to my heart. I hope that we can all remember what Jesus went through for us this week, and how his death and ressurection is a symbol of God's everlasting love for us.


Joyful Love
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Blessings In The Lord
Alexandra K. Acosta

Decision Not Yet Made

Yesterday was my appointment in Houston at TCH with Dr. Martinez (the transplant doctor). The appointment went ok, it could have been a lot worse. She has not made a decision yet about whether or not she is going to do the transplant. In this appointment, she wanted to see how I was clinically doing, and repeat all the blood work, because it has been about six months since she last saw me. She said that I definitely had more swelling, redness, and the rash on my face was present. All of this was not visible when she last saw me. She wants to make sure that the transplant will actually benefit me, and that she will not do more harm than good. She and the rest of the team meet every Friday, and once all of the lab work comes in (some could take up to a week), they will formulate a plan. She said that even if she decides not to do a transplant, their will be a plan B, and she will continue to be helping me in anyway she can, and continue working on my case. Though I was disappointed not to have a yes or no answer, it does feel good to know that whatever the decision is, that it will not be made lightly, and that she and the other doctors have really thought hard and long about it. I have another appointment scheduled with her on April 3rd, and at that point we will be given a plan. 

I am trying my best to be patient and to not over analyze things, and think about all the "what-ifs", but it is extremely difficult. I have been praying nearly every day that the doctors will do the BMT, and I know that God knows what I want. I think that I have to continue to really trust, believe, and have faith. I love what Romans 4:18 says, "Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed..." When I read this scripture, it helps me to continue to hope and believe, even if in the natural it seems as though you shouldn't. Until I hear a confirmed no, I am still going to believe that the transplant will happen, and say "when it happens" instead of "if". I can't expect abundance if I speak and act negatively. So as I continue to wait, I am just trying to take it day by day, and be at peace knowing that I'm letting "Jesus Take The Wheel."


Joyful Love
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Blessings In The Lord
Alexandra K. Acosta

Will Wednesday Finally Get Here!!!!

As some of my family and close friends may know, patience is not one of my strongest virtues. This is something that I am trying to work on, and its quite difficult. So as you can imagine, waiting for my appointment to arrive on Wednesday is driving me crazy. I am trying not to think about it, and do things to keep my mind occupied, but its always in the back of my mind. When I talk about the transplant I always say "when" it happens not "if", this makes it sound more positive, and that helps me to not think about all the "what if's." When you speak something out, you're giving life to your faith. As Proverbs 6:2 says, "...you have been trapped by what you said, ensnared by the words of your mouth." I really believe that verse. I believe if we speak negativity we can't expect abundance and prosperity.

As Wednesday is approaching I am getting both nervous and excited at the same time. In some ways I'm nervous for them to say yes, because I know what a BMT entails, and how hard it will be on my body. But at the same time I'll be excited when they say yes, because I know it will be a step for me to lead a happy, healthy, and normal life. I am not going to let fear in. When it knocks on my door, I am going to say "go away" (not really of course, but you know what I mean). I feel that if I am anxious and nervous, then I am not really trusting God. By trusting God, I can be at peace, free of all worries, fear, and anxiety. Isaiah  41:10 says, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." As I am waiting for my appointment, and even after, I must keep what this scripture says close to my heart. Worrying, and having fear will not help anything, and will cause more negativity. I think I just need to put my trust in the Lord, and have peace and positive thoughts. I know that God will come through for me with this transplant. I have complete faith in him. And at this point that is the only thing that I have control over.


Joyful Love
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Blessings In The Lord
Alexandra K. Acosta